Updating to keep this journal alive.
Fri, Oct. 21st, 2005, 10:36 pm
Fri, Oct. 14th, 2005, 10:55 am
Sam's post really pissed me off, but I made nice.
I try. It has been pointed out to me by many people over the years that my greatest fault is always putting myself first. Well, no shit. I do that as I learned a long time ago no one else will watch out for me, cover my back. But I now realize that fault and try to act accordingly. I really try my damnedest to live a good life, keep out of other people's business and make this world a better place.
But I unintentionally fuck up occasionally; when I do, I always manage to do it in some massive way that affects other people's lives.
I didn't mean to get embroiled in this whole CJ angst-fest. I was trying to do my job, CJ wasn't doing hers and I was only trying to find out why that was. But somehow I started rumors which caused many bad feelings to happen, or perhaps they were already there and my actions caused them to surface.
I don't know why that is. Nor do I understand why Sam felt the need to chastise me along with the others, as I've never really been part of that circle.
I don't just don't get it.
I did this out of boredom in my hotel room - yet it is rather bizarre...
Tue, Sep. 6th, 2005, 04:57 pm
I've been so damned busy I forgot I had this thing. Must remember to post.
Sun, Jun. 19th, 2005, 10:02 am
Once again, another day I'd just as soon ignore rolls around - Father's Day.
Hallmark doesn't make the card I would buy, "You fucked me over - may you rot in hell for eternity you sanctimonious bastard."
Spending the day with Elizabeth - still no sign of Doug - though he usually turns up for the "One Big Happy First Family on Father's Day" photos.
Wed, May. 18th, 2005, 01:59 pm
I'm not very introspective, but this has been bothering me.
Joe wanted a relationship beyond meeting for sex - I told him to leave.
Josh wanted to define our relationship, in order to take it to the next level - I wouldn't.
All of my single friends, those my age, bemoan the fact that there aren't any available men willing to settle down into a committed relationship.
Why do I attract the few who are?
Why do I shy away once they declare their intentions?
And why shouldn't I? Josh wanted commitment. Yet, when I needed him, after I resigned, that bastard turned away from me.
Elizabeth told me I needed to stop playing the field, to settle down.
Like she lives in marital bliss?
Why did she say that?
Why should I?
Why have I been pondering this?
Fri, Apr. 29th, 2005, 01:09 pm
[email to Joe Quincy]
You want to take a walk on the wild side?
Thu, Apr. 14th, 2005, 12:18 pm
[Email to Joe Quincy]
I was quite relieved to get to work today and find my nameplate still on my door.
Thu, Apr. 7th, 2005, 01:08 pm
I have to start reading my journal - I had some spare time and wanted to see if
dufus Doug was up to anything, so I checked out my journal and found out today we have a Republican working here.
I'm so out of the loop on the other side of the building, I never knew.