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Wed, May. 18th, 2005, 01:59 pm

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I'm not very introspective, but this has been bothering me.

Joe wanted a relationship beyond meeting for sex - I told him to leave.

Josh wanted to define our relationship, in order to take it to the next level - I wouldn't.

All of my single friends, those my age, bemoan the fact that there aren't any available men willing to settle down into a committed relationship.

Why do I attract the few who are?

Why do I shy away once they declare their intentions?

And why shouldn't I? Josh wanted commitment. Yet, when I needed him, after I resigned, that bastard turned away from me.

Elizabeth told me I needed to stop playing the field, to settle down.

Like she lives in marital bliss?

Why did she say that?

Why should I?

Why have I been pondering this?

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